Words of life in the midst of death.

If only you knew that I’m still God. I’m still for you, still the same God that gave you a future and a hope. I didn’t die, I didn’t abandon you. I didn’t. All you can see is the pain but I see the beauty I’m creating inside your heart. I wish you could understand but you can’t. Not now, but you will soon. Soon, you will see why it had to be this way. Why I had to allow you to be weak and hurting. In all your sorrow, I’ve been breaking your heart so you can understand My will. Your heart became so rigid and cold. You’ve been focusing on yourself instead of focusing on Me. I had to get your attention. I’ve tried again and again and with every attempt- your heart broke. You were afraid and watched your trust in Me crumble before your very eyes. When you cried, I cried; and it hurt Me so much to see how you misunderstood Me. Breaking your heart was the only way to mold you into a worthy vessel. You became so blind. How you forgot that My will is for you to be true to Me! You thought you knew all about serving Me but you couldn’t have been more wrong. Can you serve Me if you don’t live what you say? The irony of it all was that you thought you were. How sin’s hands have covered your eyes! My will is for you to live like I did- a life of complete surrender to The Father. Live for Him by serving only for His eyes to see. You’ve made it so complicated when all He wants from you is a whole heart. Do My will by abiding in Me. Be willing to lay yourself down and watch Me empty you of yourself and fill you with Me. My will is your only safety and happiness. It’s the life you’ve always wanted to live but never knew was possible. It is possible but only through Me and it’s so much more beautiful than you’ve ever imagined! You were made to walk in My footsteps but in order to do that- I must become your feet. You cannot walk alone, I have to walk through you. I cannot do that while you’re still in control of your life. That’s why I’ve been allowing heartache in your life. With every defeat, I’ve been gaining more and more control. Choose My will by abandoning yourself to Me. Trust Me even when nothing seems to make sense. If you will choose My will, I will cause you to understand and see things in ways few ever did. You see, My thoughts are so much higher than yours. My ways are higher. I’m aware of everything you’re experiencing, nothing has escaped Me. Everything that’s happening is for a precise purpose. I’m bringing you to a place of absolute surrender. I know, it’s been taking Me a while. It’s not because I can’t do it faster, it’s because I work with merciful hands. I know you are dust and I’ve been protecting the flame of faith within you from going out. The wind around you is not meant to steal that flame but to make it stronger and brighter. I work in secret. The moments when you feel like you’re losing all control are the very moments I prepare. Nothing has ever happened to you without Me allowing it. Don’t let the enemy whisper dark thoughts but rather surrender to Me and you will start to see Me. You have so many questions, so many fears. Your heart is heavy but this heaviness is not from me. I want to change your eyes. I want you to see things from My perspective. I want to see through you. You’ve been so confused because your vision is so limited. You cannot see My beauty in the midst of your pain but that doesn’t mean My beauty is inexistent. I want to give you of this beauty but you have to trust Me. I’ve been trying to overtake your life again and again, little by little I am conquering you. I want you to feel what I feel, to live through you. It’s your life in exchange for Mine or better said- your death in exchange for My life. You’ve lost much and are feeling the effects of this death. It hurts and it’s not how you would’ve had it but if you choose Me, your wounds will heal and they will give way to the most radiant of life. My very Spirit living and breathing inside you. Don’t resist but rather surrender to the way I’m molding you. You are being made into a most beautiful vessel. A vessel worthy of carrying the precious oil of My anointing.

Then he said to me, “Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel. Behold, they say, ‘Our bones are dried up, and our hope is lost; we are indeed cut off.’ Therefore prophesy, and say to them, Thus says the Lord GOD: Behold, I will open your graves and raise you from your graves, O my people. And I will bring you into the land of Israel. And you shall know that I am the LORD, when I open your graves, and raise you from your graves, O my people. And I will put my Spirit within you, and you shall live, and I will place you in your own land. Then you shall know that I am the LORD; I have spoken, and I will do it, declares the LORD.”

-Ezekiel 37:11-14 (ESV)