Since we moved to the United States during my teenage tears, the transition took a toll on me. I often felt lonely and confused, and even though I spoke the language well, I found myself closing off inwardly. At the age of 19, while studying in the college library, I had a horrifying experience. It all happened very quickly. In a moment, I felt as if the deepest darkness engulfed my life. I suddenly felt taken away from everything beautiful and good in life and it was something I couldn’t explain to anyone. Not even to myself. This was clearly not depression but a severe attack of the enemy to destroy my life. Yet, it was something that God used for my good and for His glory. It was the scariest experience of my life and it lasted about 6 months. It’s hard for me to explain but the experience was so real! Intense fear gripped my mind and heart very often with no logical reason and I felt like I was slowly fading away from the normal world. At times, I would even fear…
from my book GLORIOUS DESTINY by Estera Marian
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I believe God can use my experience to empower you to step into your destiny!
The Eyes of My Heart 
Thank you for sharing such a deeply personal and vulnerable passage. Estera Marian’s account from Glorious Destiny is both haunting and powerful—a raw expression of spiritual crisis and eventual transformation. What stands out most is the honesty with which she describes the isolation, the terror, and the unexplainable nature of her suffering. It’s clear that what she experienced went beyond mere emotional struggle; it was something existential, spiritual, and profoundly disruptive.
Hi I been there thank God for my deliverance I been though a lot thank God for the freedom of overcoming and coming out it. Thank you for sharing it will set a lot of people free. Sometimes people have no one to talk to your blog is giving that freedom and hope to hurting people. Keep up the beautiful work that you do many blessings to you.
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Sheila
Thank you Sheila 🩷 I appreciate your encouraging comment!!
We all have something horrifying that defines us our whole lives