Reflecting on my upcoming marriage.

There are times in life when it’s hard to know how to respond. I’ve always dreamt of getting married. If you’re a woman, you know what it’s like to dream of being a bride one day. But how do you respond when you are so close to actually living your dream? My wedding is a little over a month away. I’m getting married! Beyond the excitement and busyness that comes with planning a wedding, there is a gentle desire that keeps blooming inside my soul. It’s a small whisper that keeps saying, “…it’s not enough, it’s not enough.” It’s not enough to look beautiful on my wedding day. It’s not enough to wear the most exquisite wedding dress. Even though my wedding dress is more beautiful than I’ve ever imagined it would be. It’s not enough to have a perfect ceremony, a perfect floral arrangement, a perfect reception…it’s simply not enough. I don’t want to just wear a dress, as beautiful as it is- if my heart doesn’t have the beauty that far surpasses anything material. I want to live my wedding day with a purified heart. I want more than the beautiful white flowers that will adorn the church. I want to be a pure flower. This world has a way of staining us. Not just the world but our own flesh. And the enemy will fight the hardest to steal the beauty of God’s amazing plans for your life. I know I can’t sanctify myself. Only God can. I long for His blood to wash me, to give me a new heart. To fill me with a thirst for true beauty- His perfect holiness. As I reflect upon my wedding day that’s just around the corner, I realize that one day it will be a memory. The years will pass and we will journey through life’s joys and sorrows, growing old together. I only have my husband for a lifetime. That’s short. I want so much to honor him, to live for him, to cherish him. But I know I can’t without God. Only He can make me the wife I need to be. I can’t believe this day is so close! I can’t believe I’m marrying such a prince! I can’t believe God still writes love stories…